Distracted.

It seems there's always a single word to describe where I'm at in life. Right now, it's

DISTRACTED.

I don't know why but I feel like I've had a hard time focusing on anything. Work. Exercise. Movies. Worship. Reading. I don't think is like adult onset ADHD/ADD. Maybe it's Satan doing his best to tear me down and take my attention away from God. It seems to happen that whenever you get really deep into the Word and your faith, Satan comes crashing down on your life. And since getting involved with Kairos, and my church, listening to more Christian music than secular music, and just diving more into the Word and other good books, it's been happening that way. It has happened so many times before. In fact, when I took the Principles and Practice of Prayer class in college (AMAZING class btw. Dr. Peugh FTW) we talked about we should prepare for that spiritual warfare the first week of class.

The only difference is from some of those other times is I have a prayer army. I have all kinds of people I can text or call or Facebook on a whim and ask for desperate prayer. And I know those people will pull through for me and pray desperate prayers on my behalf. I know. I've felt it. Just a couple weeks ago, I had this awful discouraging time that just blew me off my feet. It came out of nowhere and I just felt helpless. But I texted 2 people just saying "I'm really discouraged and down right now, can you just pray for me when you read this??" And they did. They didn't both read it right away, but that was ok. I know for a fact that they prayed for me and will continue to do so. I felt their prayers.

But lately, I've been so distracted with silly meaningless things that I don't even notice that I am distracted. Facebook. Sudoku. Doing my hair. Whatever. These things take up so much of my time that I could be praying or reading my Bible or being an encouragement to someone else. Instead of asking God for things, I could be praising Him. Instead of taking for granted all of the many things I have been blessed with, I could be thanking Him for them. Instead of standing on my own two feet and making impulse decisions, I could be relying on Jesus and consulting Him on all my major decisions. Instead of doing selfish tasks, I could be doing something for someone else. Instead of buying yet another movie to add to my HUGE collection, I could buy someone a meal, or a coat, or some soap!!

I feel like I've been living without blinders on. Some may see that as a bad thing, but the purpose of blinders on a horse is to make sure they AREN'T distracted or spooked by anything. It's to help them FOCUS. That's what I need right now. Any and all prayers would be greatly appreciated and graciously accepted.