Judged. I've been thoroughly judged. To my face and behind my back.
Do you think I want to be the unemployed college graduate who is living back at home with her family?? Who actually wants that pathetic lifestyle??? Who, by the way, also has student loan repayments coming up in the not so distant future... Do you think I want to be the girl who comes in right before church starts and leaves right after it ends?? Do you think I want to be the moocher?? Do you think I wanted all of the trials and ups-and-downs I've been through?? Do you think I want to be surrounded by people who drive Mercedes, Lexus, and $100,000 cars their mommies and daddies bought them for their 16th birthday?? Or how about the ones who only buy designer clothes and spend HOURS getting ready in the morning (who by the way, are flawless when they wake up. I don't see why they even need to do anything but roll outta bed...)??
I'm just a big spoiled-selfish-good-for-nothing-lowdown-scum-hypocrite-coward-fatty. There I said it. Before you had the chance to tell anyone else all the crap you think about me. Because I know you talk crap about me behind my back. I know you think I'm a big lazy bum who doesn't have a care in the world. Well, newsflash! I care too much!!!! And I'm just as frustrated as you are that I don't have a job or a boyfriend or a place to myself or even a car in my own name!!!
And I'd like to be almost anywhere but here right now. Because being this way is not what I signed up for when I paid $100,000 for my education.
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