these past 2 1/2 weeks i've had a lot of time to myself which of course shifts my brain into overdrive. i've had a lot of time to just think about where i've been these past couple of years and try to figure out where i'm going. i've come up with more questions than answers. and of course second guessing everything that i thought i knew i wanted/had coming. what if God actually only called me to San Diego for the summer?? What if i NEED to go to grad school earlier than hoped and planned?? what if i chose the wrong career path for my life?? what if i never make enough money to see my family and friends on a semi- regular basis?? all of these and more have just swirling in my brain. i have thoughts and dreams of apartments/houses, furniture, jobs, finances, social lives and so much more. i have no idea what i'm doing tomorrow. in fact, something might happen tomorrow that will blow all of these things out of the water (please note that i'm not actually hoping that will happen nor am in insinuating that it will. that's up to God, not me. and heaven knows i know NOTHING).
california. it really does something to you. maybe it's the air. the ocean. the palm trees. the cacti. the sand.
maybe it's just me... growing older....
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