isn't it nice to know that the lining is silver?

it's come down to a bit of a reality check. i was talkin to my mom on the phone the other day and i was asking when i should start applying for other* jobs. (*jobs not in CA) and basically she said now.

Holy. Crap.

so i've printed out applications and have been filling them out, and having to reprint pages because i'm making stupid errors or getting food smudges on them (does that make me a fatty?? prolly.... sigh... oh well...), fixing up my resume to cater to all the experiences i'm having here in CA. and residence hunting online. (which is the biggest pain in the butt everrrr. esp when ppl don't post pics or only post pics of the outside. and started worrying more about finances and figuring out how i'd get back and all that jazz. growing up is no fun at all. Also you should probably know i have the best family ever. my uncle works as a civilian for the usaf and in the past year or so have reconnected. he lives in ok city so it's been hard to keep in touch. anyways: he's shown me how to job hunt gov't jobs. actually he put in all the info for me and then fwded me the results. awesome. (for those of you who want in, just check out http://www.usajobs.gov/)


ALSO, I have a story to share...
Welp I was chatting with Amy on Skype yesterday and I was filling her in on the whole situation because she's kinda outta the loop seeing as how she's in Spain.  As I was telling her my processing and thoughts I said something about how being here has helped me get a clearer view of where I want to head in my career path. "It just kinda sucks that I had to come out here to do it..." I said to her. And I'm not even kidding it was kinda like a lightbulb went off. That's why God brought me here. He had to get me away from everything and everyone for me to be able to process through all of that. Ugh. Too bad I had to come all the way out here to figure that out.

Next step: to see where God leads me next or has for me to learn... cuz I'm out here till September.



In other exciting news: I fly home in 22 days. My surgery is in 24 days. Hallelujah!!!